Please allow me to share with you all what God has done in my life over the past few days.
As many of you know, writing is one of my most favorite things to do. In fact, I have been publishing work since late 2010. Lately, I have been heavily questioning the calling I have received to write. I have been so discouraged for no apparent reason. The dominant thought my own mind seemed to encompass was this, “I do not have anything new or revolutionary to say, and others don’t really care what I have to say anyway.”
Yesterday, Valentines Day 2012, as I was driving to Chickasha to spend the day with my wonderful fiance, I had a conversation with God about how I felt. I asked Him if He truly wanted me dedicate so much time to writing when I personally had nothing new to say or any truly revolutionary ideas. As I drove, hearing only the gliding of my car’s tires over the bumpy Oklahoma roads, I listened while pushing out every thought that previously filled my mind.
“The message I want people to hear is not new.”
There was no supernatural holy-sounding voice that was being projected from the heavens. There was no chorus of angels singing as God descended to talk to me. There was no bright, blinding light followed by the voice of Jesus Christ. The was only one, prominent invasive thought, “The message i want people to hear is not new.”
At that moment, I remembered that I had not been called to produce some fantastic revolutionary new aspect of Christianity. If God is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow (Malachi 3:6), then I abuse the calling God has placed on my life by coming up with something new. God’s message to humanity has always been the same, and my calling is only to proclaim who God has always been. We are to do this by being good stewards to God with the various talents we have.
If this was the case, I asked God, then why do I feel so discouraged toward what I am writing. In the same manner, I heard God speak to me once again, “If you are choosing to live for me, why would there not be any opposition in a world that denies me?” I became discouraged because I do what I do only for God? In the word of Vizzini: INCONCEIVABLE!
When we do what we do for God, there is a power that would want to stop us from working. This power is represented on a popular scale by the character of Satan.
For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. -Ephesians 6:12 ESV
It is so ironic to think that I mention the very issue I am currently struggling with in the book that I am about to release, Rules of Engagement. I did not even consider the words that God had already shown me. Needless to say, I will continue writing and will do so to the glory of God! I also hope that if you are discouraged in serving God with what He has given you, that you will overcome. Don’t let Satan have a say!